Have you ever found yourself eating differently when eating with other people? I did. With John, I ate whatever I wanted, but when other people were involved, things were very different.
If I had gone out to dinner with you back in my morbidly obese days I would have seemed the paragon of healthy eating. I would have told you about my latest diet and shared some healthy eating tips with you. I would have seemed like I had my eating habits all together.
Sometimes I wished I had a friend who would come over and spend every day with me so I wouldn’t have been tempted to eat huge amounts of food every single day. But no friend ever volunteered to be my food baby sitter, so I was on my own. And I didn’t do so well.
If I went out to dinner with a friend, and ate a small, healthy meal I’d come home and eat another meal and a dessert. I felt deprived and hungry. I got mad at myself when I ate another dinner because I knew I shouldn’t be eating again. I did this over and over again throughout the years.
I didn’t want my friends to think I was out of control so I pretended to have everything under control. But the truth of the matter was that I didn’t have any control over my food. My food was controlling me. It was a hard place to be.
As I lost weight, my eating habits around other people began to mirror my eating habits in private. I began to understand that those smaller, healthier meals I used to pretend to enjoy really were healthy for me. Those tiny amounts of chicken and one piece of bread were appropriate portions that would help me stay healthy and lose weight.
These days my private and public eating habits are similar. I occasionally eat sweets in public and I occasionally eat sweets at home. Being consistent with my public and private eating was an important step for me in my weight loss journey.
Did you ever eat differently in front of other people? Diane